Me, Myself and Why.

2010 might be a defining year in my existence. of course it is. i'm diverting away from the obvious but the truth is this whole year has been a freaking roller-coaster of emotions, excitement, confusions and even that plain old heartache. i always make assumptions and draw conclusions about life. maybe this is the part where everything seems to be exhilarating. the new phase of life as they say. truth to be told, all there is deep down inside is just emptiness. the state where one doesn't really know what to do, how to feel and how to react. quoting McCracken- "I haven't lost anything except my mind."- and also Ne-yo -"... I'm feeling no stress, I'm too fly to be depressed."- well, this month has been tiring but i am just drained physically and mentally these past few days. all these stimuli that triggered all those feelings that proved to be just too overwhelming for this 5'6 guy. then again, all these pieces of lyrics from my daily playlist could just define who or what i am this very day. they explained things. for instance,  Nelly Furtado's 'all good things come to an end', Cee Lo's 'forget you', Blink 182's 'what went wrong?' as well as Bullet For My Valentine's 'heart burst into fire' that made perfect sense. nevertheless, the line that divides reality and my far-fetched imagination is pretty much blurred. once i said, "emotions used to be my middle name, but now, it is wrapped around my middle finger." but as much as we are denying it, we are after all just a bunch of hypocrites. i am not that cold after all. it just amazes me how the slightest sign of affection could lead to the most epic stir. till then.