Happiness.

a state that everyone long for. we humans smile. we humans laugh. we humans hug. but does that define happiness ? it baffles me and left me perplexed as most people have an idea of happiness that doesn't necessarily make them happy. for instance, a person always long for someone to share his or her life with. but even if that someone doesn't seem to care much about that person or scientifically referred as an 'asshole', that person would still say that he or she is happy. they might even say,"I think I'm happy, yeah, I'm happy." you're not happy, you just have the idea of being happy.

happiness is not an obligation. it never is. we are never obliged to be happy for someone or to be happy with someone. we don't wait for happiness. stop waiting and start looking for it. make changes and sacrifices in your life. that's the pursuit of happiness. everyone in this world has a gift from god. no matter what it is we are gifted in a way. "I've been given such a gift shame to take advantage of it"-McCracken. I'm not taking advantage of my gifts but it's still a shame when I decided to ignore them for some unworthy reasons. I have so much going on for myself. I have to learn to embrace that.

I never stopped smiling and I laughed the loudest. but now I'm here being all melancholic about stuffs. my friend said its a side of me that no one knows of its existence. not even him who I've known for 5 years. but this is who I really am . I'm the opposite of a chocolate ball that has a nut stuffed in it. I've a hard shell with mushy insides. I did something earlier today. I gave up on something that means the world to me. it hurts and I was mean. I'm just too tired and I want to be happy for a change. whoever you are. thank you for everything. till then.